So we’re asked if we’re any happier this far into MKMMA than we’ve been previously. I suppose that’s a fair question, although it is a measurement or perhaps it’s simply an awareness. Yes, that’s what it is – an awareness.
So my husband tells me that there’s definitely been a shift in me. Says he can’t quite pinpoint it, but there’s definitely a shift. Do I handle things differently in that I’m not as reactive as I once was and perhaps I’m more responsive? I can see that. I have always been a person who has a lot of grey in my life in that I always try to see the good in other people and situations, whereas my husband has always been strictly black and white. Having raised three children you can imagine the fun times we had in parenting them (and yes, that was total sarcasm!) I’m always looking to give someone the benefit of the doubt, and I find myself doing that to an even greater degree. I think I’m quicker to let things go, spend less time dwelling on them. I definitely have less of a need to “be right”, except with my husband – lol I wonder if that will ever change despite how much transformation I may experience!! But then again, I guess it’s always good to know that there’s plenty of room for improvement.
What I’m really trying to say here through all this babble, is I’m in a happier place. I’m happier because I’m much more content, and I’m much more content because I am VERY strongly seated in gratitude. It’s scientifically impossible to feel anything other than happiness, appreciation and joy when we live in a state of gratitude. Also at this point in my life I am grateful for all the challenges and obstacles that have come my way. I realize they all have made me the person I am today, and although I know I have lots of room for improvement and growth, I also know that I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!